Anxiety makes it hard for me to open up to people. It is hard for me to keep writing about anything really. If you don’t struggle everyday with social anxiety, you are probably wondering why. And that is okay. And you probably are thinking why doesn’t she just get over it? That is okay too.
There is a simple answe for that. I can’t “just get over it.”
Why? Because I can’t change part of my personality. Imagine trying to change your personality or something else that would be impossible to change.
You learn to live with it, you learn coping skills. That is what I have to do every single day. I wake up, and sometimes have a hard time stepping out my front door just because I woke up, and I was overwhelmed already.
Since I have been learning how to cope in therapy, I have had more good days than bad ones.
Do I wish I was “normal”? Some days I do. But then I wouldn’t be able to show my boys how I can get better as a mom and as a person. I get to show them how even as an adult, you can learn, change, and always keep evolving into a better version of myself.