It came in today!! I ordered my box and it came in! I am so excited! I didn’t order a lot, but it is a start. I honestly don’t know which item I am more excited for. 





DBT Group Therapy

So, I have been going to group therapy for about four weeks now. I don’t know if its helping me at all. Every week I have gone, it seems like we talk about other’s issues and give them feedback. But when I had brought up an issue I have been having, it just got lumped in with everything else.
Maybe I am over reacting. But I don’t see how group therapy iis suppose to help me. I don’t understand how it is suppose to be conducive to my recovery.

Borderline Personality Disorder

Recently I was diagnosed with BPD. Do I understand it? No, not really. But that is okay. But that doesn’t mean I am okay with not knowing or understanding it. 

Knowing is its own curse. Knowing iis sometimes harder than not knowing. I do know that I will get through this. Will I be cured? No, but I will be able to learn how to live with it. 
If you have this, know that you are not alone. What you go through, it is normal for us. We are not broken.
If you know someone with BPD, love them. Yes it is hard to not to fully understand what your loved one is going through, but that is okay too.

Product Review time!!!!!!

I have a thing for essential oils. I love them. The brand I love, is Aura Cacia.

I especially love the lavender oil. Aura Cacia’s quality is very good. Just a small amount goes a long way. But in my opinion, the price is a little high. I would deffinatly buy more oils from them, unfortunatly not as often as I would like.

Sunday 10/30/16

Today, was very long. I had forgot to take my meds this morning so little things were bothering me. I am thankfull for every day that I have.

I really should be asleep right now, but my head will not shut off. Having insomnia with my anxities, really is hard. But I have been slowly trying to get healthier. It is not easy. For a long time I was addicted to soda. But, with the help of my boyfriend, I rarely drink it now.

The next thing I want to work on giving up or at least cutting way back on my intake, is sugar. I know it is not going to be easy. It will probably be harder than soda.

Hopefully this week I will get around to writting about budgeting, and how I plan on making one, along with a weekly meal plan. I hate not knowing what is going to be made for dinner.

Good night, have a blessed slumber!

A little about me 

Hi, I am Victoria, and I am nervous about writing about myself. Why? Because I have severe anxiety. Every day, I deal with social anxiety, agorophobia, and generalized anxiety. There are days where I find myself wishing for a “normal” life. But, I don’t know what that looks like. So, I do the best that I can.

I am a mother of two wondrful boys, ages ten and three and a half. My youngest, Carter, has some specials needs, but we are working with a speech therapist to help im, and he has made so much improvement. My oldest, Nathanael, is so sweet and loving, he has a tendency of trying to be my little protector since his dad left eight years ago.

My boys are my world, and I would move mountains for them. That is all for tonight, since it is almost midnight.