The Man Behind the Tree — Discover

So, Election Day has come and gone. Thank god! I can’t believe the wave of emotions I have been feeling. I will talk more about that later. As a survivor of rape, we need to talk about this. Talking about rape is so important!

I was raped four times by my now ex boyfriend’s best friend. I was so scared. I bought into the thoughts that it was my fault. It was never my fault. I said no. I wasn’t strong enough to fight. I’m talking about being paralyzed with fear of my friends in the next room blaming me.

When they found out I had a hard time letting them touch me. But I did let them hug me after I calmed down.

About a year and a half after being raped, I was contacted by someone from San Diego PD about it. They told me a friend of mine had told them what had happened. But they needed to hear it from me and have it be recorded for my statement. That day I found out he had assulted three other women one of which was a minor. That pissed me off. I started on the path of recovery that day.

If you are reading this and have been touched in a way that was unwanted speak up! No more blaming yourself. You are the only one that will stand up for you!

Tell a friend have them go tell the police with you! Call the police and ask for a female officer to meet you somewhere neutral to take your report.

On why we need to talk about rape and sexual assault: “Though our experiences may vary; the bond of terror is singular.”

via The Man Behind the Tree — Discover


Product Review time!!!!!!

I have a thing for essential oils. I love them. The brand I love, is Aura Cacia.

I especially love the lavender oil. Aura Cacia’s quality is very good. Just a small amount goes a long way. But in my opinion, the price is a little high. I would deffinatly buy more oils from them, unfortunatly not as often as I would like.


I love my job. I love that I am able to be home at night, and care for people that need a little extra help. I believe that I was meant to care for others.

Sunday 10/30/16

Today, was very long. I had forgot to take my meds this morning so little things were bothering me. I am thankfull for every day that I have.

I really should be asleep right now, but my head will not shut off. Having insomnia with my anxities, really is hard. But I have been slowly trying to get healthier. It is not easy. For a long time I was addicted to soda. But, with the help of my boyfriend, I rarely drink it now.

The next thing I want to work on giving up or at least cutting way back on my intake, is sugar. I know it is not going to be easy. It will probably be harder than soda.

Hopefully this week I will get around to writting about budgeting, and how I plan on making one, along with a weekly meal plan. I hate not knowing what is going to be made for dinner.

Good night, have a blessed slumber!

A little about me 

Hi, I am Victoria, and I am nervous about writing about myself. Why? Because I have severe anxiety. Every day, I deal with social anxiety, agorophobia, and generalized anxiety. There are days where I find myself wishing for a “normal” life. But, I don’t know what that looks like. So, I do the best that I can.

I am a mother of two wondrful boys, ages ten and three and a half. My youngest, Carter, has some specials needs, but we are working with a speech therapist to help im, and he has made so much improvement. My oldest, Nathanael, is so sweet and loving, he has a tendency of trying to be my little protector since his dad left eight years ago.

My boys are my world, and I would move mountains for them. That is all for tonight, since it is almost midnight.